tots of mine dat i dont know how to express..

warning:this post is an emotional post..

i cant help it...

yesterday wuz the most scary and terrifying night ever...

in my life..

never in my life ...

felt this way b4...

every emotion wuz so messed up..

i din noe wad to do..

shocked...

scared..

felt like sumthin juz ripped out of me...

i trust u..

but i realise i did things dat show dat i din...

and made u dissapointed..

im so stupid...

im so easily deceived...

used my brain..but emotion betrayed me..

i kept thinking about the things u said...yesterday..

i blame myself for my stupidity...

im wrong from the start...

if the situation changes..and if i were u...

i'll be dissapointed and upset too...

yes...i do love u...

but i made a very big mistake...

yesterday, i wuz terrified..

i tried to control..

but part of me juz went crazy..

and i want to appologize...

this feeling of being afraid......

wuz never so so strong...

i wuz wrong...

and i learnt a very big lesson...

i wont ever dare to doubt anymore...

i noe...maybe...

ur hating...

me...

or

maybe not...

but...

sincerely...from my bottom of my heart...

and i noe u hate me saying this...

IM SORRY...